Bittersweet..... feels more bitter than sweet....

Sigh... it's been a busy time.... taking care of the Degree Orientation Week, that's been happening the last three days...

Things are going so nice and I'm enjoying myself a lot...
I enjoy working with the rest of the SOAR Advisor team....
Abel, Pamela, Melanie, Roger, Kimberley, Ky,
GT, Cheryl, Anthony, Augustine, Wisdom,
Hiew, Genesis, Ian, Aylwin...
and just today, Iqbal got to join the SOAR force....
Things are so fun when we get together...
we dance... we sing... we work together.... we laugh together....

All is great.... but I just got to mention it...
my time now is quite a bittersweet one..
this is just something, i guess... only I am currently facing.. in this team...

it just... hurts....................................... a lot...
I can even recall last night when everyone was practising a dance.. I purposely isolated myself...
using the reason to take photographs just so that I could just be..... left isolated from the crowd...
it hurts.....
just earlier tonight.. it hurt some more... despite all of the laughter....
guess what my research essay said was really right...

"...too much laughter gives an artificial feeling of joy. You can have a great time at a two-hour comedy show -- but experience an empty feeling afterward. That's because you got worked up high, but it wasn't real. And the reality always comes back."

and the reality just hurts.......................................................