A very short life chapter of mine...

It's been a long time since I udpated my blog... and I'm still very lazy to, honestly..
but today, I just felt like talking about something that I got to experience recently...

You know how it works... love at first sight..
A man encounters a woman for the first time ever and feels a sudden burst of attraction towards her, or vice versa.. or both at once, if they're lucky.
But there's always that question or doubt to that... "Is it ever possible?"
I know of some friends that don't believe in 'love at first sight'...
Personally, I don't exactly disbelief it or disapprove of its chances of happening... though most of the time, I disapprove the ones in many movies, films, shows, etc...
and... I really believed that it'd never happen to me...

I always thought that I'd only get attracted to a girl that I've gotten to know well for a long while... at least one week (including constant meeting up during that time)..
That's what I noticed in all my past crushes... I've known them all for a while before I actually felt that feeling of attraction to them.
But... this time, God just HAD to have it different for me for once.... I don know.. as teaser or something?

As most of you probably already know, I've been working at my aunty's t-shirt manufacturing store for the past two weeks, including this one.
I'm getting the hang of it already and am quite enjoying myself there... and honestly, even more so in the past three days (including today)...
That's also the time that she joined us to work for the first time... at least.. the first time that I've seen her work there.
She came in with the daughter of her mother's friend who works there... that friend of hers also came in to work there from the start of this week and I was not at all acquinted with her during that time.
But when that girl joined us... things kind of... changed for me.

Usually, when I work there, I'd be terribly quiet and reserved most of the time... the quiet hardworking worker.
I barely even opened my mouth during work and the other full-time workers there (though I've worked with them before) were probably scared to talk to me or something... haha.
When she came in... she kind of... cracked my shell...

On the first day that she came in, I didn't realise it.. but I was feeling somewhat attracted to her... even though she started off as a very timid and quiet person... constantly with that friend of hers I mentioned earlier. (I actually thought they were classmates or something... boy, how mistaken I was)
I don't know.. I guess somehow I found her quite pretty. Shrugs...
The first day went on as my work there usually would... nothing much..
The second day, it was about the same thing... except I felt myself wanting to get to know her...
We got to talk and know one another... Se actually was the one that broke the ice... haha! I just continued smashing it to bits.
By the end of the day, I found that am getting attracted to her... but I was still in doubt of myself... I refused to believe that it'd just happened to me...
The third day, today... I was honestly looking forward to work.
You should be able to understand that feeling.. of wanting to get to know of someone you like more..
I definitely can dare confirm it was love at first sight for me.... though [b]crush at first sight [/b]should be a more fitting term.

OK ok.. Don't go getting your hopes up now. I suspect a few of you might go, 'Go for her, dude!' or something like that... (Not being 'perasan'/overly sensitive about myself, alrite.. I know of a few friends who actually thought of hooking me up with someone... )
Why would I say that?
Well.. on a few accounts...
one, I've only gotten to know her like less than three days...
two, she's most probably not interested in me...
and third......................................................................
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.................. the main reason.............................
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....................................................................................she's not single.
Hehe... overheard her and some others talking about it and a mention of 'her boyfriend'.
Honestly, I felt quite depressed when I finally got to confirm her 'availability'... haha.

But hey, I told myself 'What's the point?'...
As if she was ever interested in me in that way... No girl ever was/is...
She is a nice girl though... that's for sure.
I really enjoy getting along with her as we work. And it's been fun as I'm being more out of my shell now at work... maybe with a little influence of knowing the workings there.
Now I know that friend of hers more too. And we get to talk, laugh, joke as we work.. haha.


I've got to think to myself while I was in that 'depressed' moment.... about me and love... about crush at first sight... about the type of girls I like...
First off... love and me just never seem to ever agree.. and love is just somewhat... walking out on me...
Hmph.. maybe I should stop with the patience and start playing around or something... Really growing tired of this 'love games'...
Then about crush at first sight... as my very short life chapter has proven to me... it is very much possible to suddenly feel attraction to someone whom you just met for the first time...
though I still very much doubt the ones that happen in movies, films, shows, stories... they're all, after all, meant to play with our fantasies and imagination and every day envies of life.
And there's the thoughts about the type of girls I like...
Roger has always been bugging me about making criterias for the type of girl I wanna be with...
Although I told him, I don't have any actual criterias... it wasn't true..
It was more like.. I didn't have a clear idea of my criterias..
Now I've gotten to identify some of the main ones that often comes into mind...
Some would include:

- long hair... minimum near shoulder length. I somewhat enjoy
the sight of a girl's hair. It kind of.. shows off the beauty and the
feminine in the girl.
- not fat... I have to state this... with no intent to offend though.
It's just that I'm only attracted to girls that are not fat in my view.
Reason being, I tend to associated feminine with thinness (though it
needn't be really that thin)
- a feminine personality/behaviour, I find a girl that has obvious feminine
traits as very attractive.
- easy to get along with... friendly and open-minded, basically. I
like to be able to just talk anything with her.
- should know more of Chinese than me... cause like my parents, my mother
knows how to read chinese better than my dad. And in my case, I don't know
Chinese a heck of a lot!

Those are some of the highest amongst my criterias.. since I'm not sure of any others for the time being...
Well... with that said and done with.. I've a few people to inform about this blog, since I told them about it through MSN while writing this.. hahaha.