Teaser of a Lifetime

"I know I'm a little late for the party but I can sympathise with what you've written,
about "that" girl.

I'll say this, love doesnt just falls on one's lap aka "Belldandy Syndrome" aka
"Sitting on your ass for love to come to you".

For a relationship to even start, you have to fight for her attention. You are attracted
to her no doubt but as of now, maybe she's not to you. So it is now up to you to do
battle and convince her as to why you're worthy of her time.

Prove it to her, show her your sincerity, be the man. Fight hard enough and one day,
she might reciprocate those feelings. If not, at least you know you've made a
wonderful friend for life.

I fully believe that those who are the hardest to win over will ultimately yield the best
relationship in the long run.

Just my 2 cents.

Good luck!"
~ Comment by Anonymous to "A very short life chapter of mine..." (12/28/2005, 12:41 PM)

Thanks for the comment, Mr. Anonymous. Those were good advises that you gave me.
But I think you missed out on one detail.

She is NOT single.

She has a boyfriend already. I don't want any bad karma go my way from stealing somebody else's girlfriend.
I never did bother to blog about this, but there IS a definitely closure on this chapter that involved 'her'.
Allow me to tell you the WORST and most OBVIOUS teaser from Fate/God in the whole of my life so far.

The following day after that fateful third day that I've gotten to know her availability and fully confirming my 'crush at first sight' emotion...
........................................................................... She'd stopped working there.
I'm not too sure of why she'd end up stopping. I've only heard of a few things... that included... "Her boyfriend didn't want her to continue working here" and "She's now working as a teacher at a kindergarten".
Coincidence? I think otherwise.
Come on, it's a bloody teaser of sorts from God/Fate on me. Making fun of me and my cursed love life.
There are possible reasons for this 'teaser' that I've come to notice, but I won't mention due to the involvement of a fellow dear friend.
Besides as being an object of comparison and distraction... it was probably there to just tease me and to show me how love just eludes me at a time when I felt it was finally coming.
Honestly, I felt that I may have a chance with her... but was crushed at a mention of her boyfriend.
When she came across my life, I was at the stage of just waiting for love to seek for me instead... I was fed up with trying to seek love and failing painfully every time.
But after this bloody teaser, I fell worse... I now feel fed up with love itself.

I don't care what you guys say about 'love comes someday and you should be patient' crap... I've had enough from a certain two people.
Whatever they said, I shot back something that they could not counter back. I already did or currently doing all, if not, most of what they advised me to do.

"Learn to chase the ladies from those Korean love stories," a certain friend told me all the time.
Come on, dude. I don't even have a 'target' to begin with.
"Love will come to you someday. Maybe it's just not the time," something else mentioned to me.
Why do you think I'm planning to just 'sit and wait'?


Just for the record, I will still bloody 'sit down and wait'. If there is gonna be that someone in my life, she's gonna have to come to me first.
It's not to say that the girl needs to make the first move on me. Come on. I'm not some stuck up bastard that thinks girls will come and hit on me without me doing anything.
I still strongly view guys to making the 'first move' on girls, instead of the other way around.
But as I said, I'll just sit and wait til then. Til when a girl comes along and captures my attention.
I don't know when that's gonna be though... and bloody hell don't wanna think of that.
Just let me live my life as normal as I always did. And hope I'd experience the life of being in a relationship someday soon.


Sigh.... having a creative and imaginative mind is somewhat a gift.... and a curse indeed.
The gift... you can imagine all sort of nice scenarios and what you can do that might get the girl's attention.
The curse.... even when you know the girl has no interest in you in any way besides a friend, your mind just thinks up of all sorts of possbilities for you ending up being with the girl...
...The boyfriend is abusive and their relationship is on the brink of breaking.
...The girl was just playing along with the others, saying that she has a boyfriend.
...Somewhere in the future, they'll break up and you'll be there for her.
All sorts of possibilities come into mind.
There's even one particular scenario in my mind that just keeps bugging me... Reason is, cause I like the idea of how it goes.
I am even thinking of using it to write a short story with it. Maybe I'll keep that idea to myself til then.
Though, I'll just say this, this particular scenario doesn't involve me getting together with the girl in the end.

I honestly still do think about her.... once a while as I work at my aunt's place. She just pops by in my head every now and then... cause of her involvement at where I work.
Though I don't feel that feeling anymore... I can barely remember her face well anymore.
Oh yeah.. why not sms? cause I never got her phone number before. Her friend is not even sure she has a mobile phone.
Shrugs... God/Fate never intended her to be in my life for more than those three days. So be it.
Everything happens for a reason... no?